Sprezzatura

appearance is a basis for attraction, but there is so much more to me, and to you, and to everyone else on this planet. Understand my language, and I will treat yours as poetry. I will close my eyes and hold an open heart, with open ears, searching through a sea of voices for yours.

You may know me now. Unlearn me.

and then learn me all over again.

But most of all. Be my best friend, make me laugh, make me wonder what it’s like to kiss you. Make me wonder for months, let me catch myself daydreaming about you.

Never let me know until we’re both having the shittiest day, and I come to you with bruised eyes, and you come to me with bruised hands and our bodies naturally melt together.

I won’t chase fantasy. I will wait in the studio. In the library. In books and art and dreams. I will wait for you and be content with never finding you.

because then, though phantom, I will forever keep a perfect idea of you.

August 16, 2011